Finally, the last bills

Yesterday I got the doctor's bill and the radiologist's bill. Those are the last ones, I think. All told, I've paid almost $1,500.

I don't care about the money so much; thank goodness I asked for a health reimbursement account and this little start-up came through for me.

I'm just tired of being reminded.

I still intend to go to a counselor for a few visits, but keep putting off scheduling it. What if I pick the wrong person and I have no rapport with her? There's a male psychiatrist just down the street, but what if he totally doesn't get why I want two kids?

My mom picked up a book for me by Garrison Keillor at the book loft. It included a CD with songs about his daughter. The book reprints the lyrics and illustrates them. The songs are so sweet and the book is so pretty. I had told Carson about it and he wanted to hear it. I started crying when I heard the lyrics. I so want a baby girl. I love my baby boy more than anything, but I so want a baby girl.