Friday, September 02, 2005

Spoiling my kid?

It's 10:50 on a Friday morning, sitting at my computer at home, kid asleep on my lap, typing with one hand, finally setting up a blog. I've had this Blogger account for awhile and have been composing posts in my head for longer than that.
Normally I would be at work, but my kid had a slight fever yesterday at day care, hence invoking the "fever-free for 24 hours" rule. "He can't come back tomorrow," Miss A said when she called to tell me he had refused his afternoon snack, which told her something was wrong with him. He is big on snacks. His fever was only 101.7, not enough to make him too grumpy, thank goodness.
At any rate, I often work like this, kid on my lap having fallen asleep while nursing. He's almost 11 months old and is still nursing AND sleeping with us. I don't mention that second bit to too many people because why provoke a mommy drive-by? It works for us (my husband too!): more uninterrupted sleep, happier kid, and very sweet mornings waking up together. I swear it puts me in a good mood each morning to watch the bubs wake up and stretch and start babbling.
The spoiling part is letting him fall asleep nursing all the time. He can fall asleep on his own and does at daycare. But if we're home together on weekends or evenings (which is always), he wants to nurse to fall asleep. Who can blame him, I guess. Wouldn't you want to fall asleep in the most comfortable way possible if you could?
The silly part for me is making myself so uncomfortable in the process (bladder is very full at the moment). If I transfer him to his crib, he'll wake up, hence the extended holding (of him, of my bladder, of the one-handed-typing record, etc.).
When I start to worry about all this, I rationalize/tell myself that he'll be weaned and not napping any more and all grown up soon enough. So then I admire his cute little sleeping face and kiss his cute little hand and stop worrying about it.